I will miss you coffee and cigarettes

Oh how I will miss my coffee and smokes….  I’m not going to lie. My most favorite thing to do is drink coffee and smoke. It used to be drink wine and smoke.. eat a big meal and smoke, drive and smoke. Anything and smoke. No more, No mas… Fini!  To prepare for my six day tomorrow I have quit smoking. I haven’t smoked in six days. I didn’t want to go through a horribly bitchy episode on my third day in… if you smoke you know how it gets. So being the control freak that I am I thought I would get a head start 🙂 In case you don’t know, at Shades of Hope there is no nicotine, caffeine, sugar, artificial sugar, alcohol, drugs, fatty-starchy-white flowery foods, music, TV, Internet, sex after midnight, my Duran Duran/New Order/Erasure mix-tape, fun of any kind and according to the show… that includes nail polish and guitars. Bummer.

I’m just not sure what I’m going to do about the caffeine. If anyone has any compassion… please, smuggle me in some of those  5 hour energy’s. Hide them in a spinach wrap… or carve out the innards of the Big Book. I’ll go Shawshank on them.

I kid, I kid…  I’m doing this for me, and I’m willing to go to any length. That includes coffee. That being said this blog is going to be silent for a week! I get out on June 4th… so check back in then! I’ll be keeping a video journal about the whole experience…So this should be interesting! If you have anything you want to say… say it now!  brock@shades-of-hope-treatment-center.websitepro.hosting

People have been asking me if I’m excited… I don’t know. I really don’t have any words to describe my feelings. I do however want to express myself in song! Love you guys, I’ll hit ya back up when I’m out.

My name is Brock and I’m addicted to me.